As I sit here at 3am trying to formulate a thought I am left with one question WHY??? Haven't we endured enough pain and anguish for now??? All I keep thinking is death comes in three's...is God trying to prepare us for something???
Maybe I'm jumping the gun because Sissy isn't gone yet but she's very close...if she pulls out of this it will be nothing less than a miracle...
It's amazing to me how one minute everything can be fine and the next everything is simply not...and how certain days mean different things for people...March 11, 2011 was the day we found out for SURE that I was in fact pregnant, this was also the day that Brittany and Shep Pugh were layed to rest, and it was my friend Sarah's 28th birthday. Three totally different meanings to this day...
March 19, 2011 was the day that we lost our baby, this day was also my friend Rachelle's baby shower...What did this day bring for you?
Yesterday April 22, 2011...what did it bring for you?
It's just odd how our days come and go...bring happy and sad moments...good and bad memories...
Right now at this very minute I am sitting in the recliner at my inlaws house close to Sissy's bed...I slept for maybe an hour but woke up at every movement she made...I'm just glad she's still breathing!
I'm usually optimistic but after what we just went through I think I've run out of optimism...it's sad really because I was my biggest cheerleader that week of waiting on the pathology report...I know everyone was trying to be positive for me but I know they knew there wasn't much HOPE left...I feel that word...it touches my heart in so many ways...
As I was typing I had to stop because Sissy passed...
Home Sweet Home! by The Pioneer Woman
5 years ago
I'm so sorry Brittany. That really, really sucks! What ended out being wrong with her? I know shes a dog but it still seems like she was really young?
ReplyDeleteAlso, I know what you mean about everyday brings different meanings to everyone. After going through all this, it is a good reminder to me that sometimes we have no idea what shoes someone else is walking in for the day. Its not like we can wear signs that say, "Please excuse us today, we have this or that going on in our life." Just is a reminder to me that I should show the grace to everyone that I wanted and needed in my times like this.
Im sorry again that you're having a rough couple of months. You said maybe God is trying to show you something, but I'd like to think that he's crying with you and hurts right along beside you!
Will be thinking and praying for you guys!
She had whipworms which are uncommon in dogs that aren't kenneled...the only thing I can come up with is they infested her instestine and caused her to lose her appetite which caused her lethargisim...she was throwing up and pooping dark blood (which meant it was from deep within)...She didn't even make it to her 2nd birthday which would have been May 19th...We are so sad...I now have to figure out how to deal with a grieving dog...Eli is so sad...he keeps looking for her and whining...We let him in the house because I don't want him to be alone... :( I hope this is the end of our sour streak because I don't think I can take much more...
ReplyDeleteThank you for your kind words they mean a lot!
You are my brave, strong girl. Remember when we lost little cat to the road? Furmus pined and whinned .... it takes time for them to be able to cope and heal, just like humans. I don't know how long that is because I don't know how long it is for humans. We aren't given time cards for dealing with things; good or bad. The only suggestion I have is that as soon as he can have a play date with another dog he might be able to start to heal. I love you so.
ReplyDeleteI love you britt!
ReplyDeleteYou are so strong, girl.
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